Sometimes I think that maybe swimming is supposed to be a big part of my life.

I've liked swimming very much since young.
Even though I have no idea how to swim then...
Iam very interested in swimming and I love the swimming pool's water.
I know it's weird, but I really liked the feeling when Iam in the pool or when Iam looking at the pool.
I think I can entertain myself in the pool for the whole day.
I remember telling my mom I knew how to swim when I was watching a swimming competition when I was small, even though I never went to swim before..
And sometimes, I do think that maybe swimming should be a big part of my life,
instead of basketball, dance, frisbee or other sports.
Maybe, just maybe.
And since recently, I've gotten my swim wear, and went to the swimming pool twice last week,
Iam in love with the pool all over again.
I've been trying to learn swimming by myself and with the help of friends,
and it was really great! ;)
I could swim quite a bit now. Heeee!
But I still have a lot of improvements to go...
Nonetheless, I'll work hard and try to be able to master the art of swimming! ;)
Argh, but recently, the weather is not in really good condition for swimming.. :(
Now, I shall 'invest' in a pair of goggles! :D

And if Iam able to swim by april next year,
Maybe I'll consider joining canoe polo as a cca next year...
Hmmmzzz

And and this sneakers that I saw at century square is really weally awesome and nice!!
Should I save up and buy it?
Should I should I??
It costs $139.. :(
Is it counted as very expensive for a pair of sneaker??
Is it worth it?

What is friend?

Whao you damn good luhh.
What 'good' friend(s) I have huh.

To you.
You said you are not free, not free to go out,
Not free to even reply my message?!
But why do I see you posting on other friend's facebook walls, commenting on their statuses, going out with them, camwhoring with them, and so on.
What the heck is this even?!
No time to even reply my msg and hang out, but have the freaking time to hang out with them for days?!
Or at least just take the initiative to msg me leh,
Iam always the one msg-ing you and you don't reply.
FUUUU
To think I trusted you and thought you were a great friend to talk and hang out with.
I was wrong.
I give up.
Iam not gonna try to msg you anymore.

To you you.
After so many many years.
I finally saw your true colors.
I finally know that you don't really treat me as a friend.
I know you didn't treat me like you treat your other friends.
I didn't really want to believe it.
I was hoping I was wrong,
But not until recently...
You went overseas, bought your other friends presents, told me the stuffs that I wanted you to get for me is out of stock.
But you could at least get me something else right?!
Since you got some small little presents for your other friends too.
When your other friend needed the tixs, you are like so desparate looking for it, what about me?!
You don't even freaking care.
My birthday, you don't even rmb.
Then when I hinted and told you my birthday was over this year, you pretended that you didn't hear it.
You didn't even wish me a belated birthday, nor gave me a belated birthday present.
You always rebuke me in everything I say,
I know Iam a noob at things, but sometimes I may be right!
Shoot me with your words.
Made use of me to earn more money for youself.
My mom says you don't treat me as a friend because you look down on me just cause Iam poor.
Cheat me cause Iam gullible.
And how you treat me and how you treat your other friends are like two different things and worlds.
Mine's hell, their's heaven.
However sometimes, even though for a short period of time, you are kinda good to me.
But after four and a half years, I finally see the light on how you see me.
友情淡如水
I shall try and stay away from you.

Why am I always having these kind of friendship problems?!
It seems that these kind of problems are planning to stick to me for my whole life.

SS3.....Nooooo

MY SS3 TICKET. :'(
FLY FLY FLY AWAY.... :'(
I wanted to convince myself that 有就去，没有也不用紧, but i failed badly. :'(
Aww shucks the first concert that I ever want to go so super duper badly, but the buying of tickets failed super duper badly too.
Funny enough, now it is not the problem of money, nor it's the problem of mom not letting me go, but it's the problem of me not being able to get the tixs.
I can only pray that RITS will be able to get a second concert, if not, I'll be regereting till I manage to go to SuperShow. :(

This current block seems to be pretty okay.
3Dart, Drawing essentials.
Alot of drawing and hands-on to do.
But it's kinda fun. I think.
Let's just pray for the best.
P.s. Gonna be super lonely for DrawEss.

Mixture of indescribable feelings

Today's one of my moody and emotional day. Again.
Lol
Feeling kinda pathetic?
I suddenly thought of the people around me.
It's just kinda sad thinking that I've been used and been cheated of my money before.
It's not only one that cheated me of my money, it's quite a few.
Think Iam dumb and gullible is it?
Trusts them too easily and I can't bear to turn them down.
Yes, Iam dumb, gullible and stupid.
(Typed a whole chunk but deleted them away.)

Can't even find people to go shop around for my bag or watch movies.
They have their own events.
Why is it that when people find me to go out and Iam free.
And when I need people to go out, they are not free?
Oh well, I should learn how to be more more more independent.

Guess I ought to build up a thicker wall to protect myself.
Can't trust people that easily anymore.

On a side note, it's weird how there's no eye candy or crushes for me since poly started.
Except for that one time during fwisbee when poly just started.
Hmm ???
But it's a good thing. I guess.

Didn't manage to buy ss3 tickets today. :(
Kinda sad, disappointed and a whole lot of indescribable feelings.

一个好爸爸 is a meaningful movie.
Got me thinking. Alot.
To add on, it's super touching. :'(

Perfectionist?

Maybe being a perfectionist is not such a good thing after all.
I think Iam quite a perfectionist when it comes to the final assignments.
Detailed work, beautiful fonts, deigns.
Without all these, I will feel uneasy and ... and I just want it to be perfect.
But there's no definition to perfect.

I destroyed the flower because imperfection is beautiful.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Shucks being in a un-united group?

Lol is twitter useless?
Pfft.
I ask people to help me do a survey on twitter, nobody help me do sia.
Okay maybe one or two did? Maybe not. Cause I didn't really keep track.
But, people mostly did it for me cause I spam them on msn.
Humph to think I help people do their surveys without them asking me.
Blehs oh well it's over.

Anyway, totally wasted most of my time in school today.
I was supposed to do our powerpoint with a groupmate.
But we both overslept.
And when we both reach school at 2pm, she went out to buy lunch with her friends, came back to eat lunch, played hide-n-seek with her friends, while i stayed in my seat for hours.
Okay lol
Iam seriously not angry or what, which is kinda weird.
And when we finally started doing the work, it was 5plus!
So, I wasted like 3hrs in school doing nothing.
Oh great. How 'great' is life.
6 people in a group becomes 2.
Seriously can't wait for this block to end, then no more of this groupwork.

Loner; when you are in a group with non-productive teammates.

My life spells two word right now - lonely loner.
In class alone, walking around alone, doing things alone, eating alone, going home alone, shopping around alone, talking alone...
Eh wait what?
Not that I don't like doing things alone, just that too much of alone time makes me feel kinda depressed about my life.
And the fact that there's so many couples on the roads adds on to my misery.
Okay alone is good, cause there won't be awkward silences or problems between people.
Hate awkward silences with people I know but do not really talk with.
But, being alone makes me feel like a loner!
Being not in the same class as my friend kinda sucks big time.

To add on, the horoscope thingy thing is not helping.
Always gives me false hopes!
Dont judge me! :P
And yeah I still read horoscope, not that I really believe in it, but I just read for the fun of it.

Plus, being in the slackiest group EVAR doesn't help at all!
Ours is not group work.
Ours is individual work combined together group work work.
LOL
They don't want to discuss anything together!
Everyone wants to get their butts outta class and school and do work on their own?!
How the hell is this group work?!
I don't agree with this. D:<
It's great that I get to go home early, but I wanna score well for the group assignment and presentation.
And it's kinda bad to be in a group with 4 guys and 2 girls(including me).
The guys don't really gives opinions or do anything productive! :(
You can say they don't give a damn.
And the girl is sometimes enthu about it and is sometimes not!
I think Iam the only one who reads the instructions of the brief carefully and really wants to perfect the work. :(
Geez!

Uninteresting lifeee

My life had been so uninteresting that I don't feel like blogging.
D:
Plus school work is driving me bonkers.
Busy busy busy.

Oh well, our csc camp grp went for an outing to minds cafe today!
It turned out to be pretty fun!
Whee~~~ :D
But I think the money spent is not very worth it.
$16 for 2hrs of games and some snackeys.
I would much rather go watch a movie.
However, it does help improve our friendship when we go to minds cafe due to the interactions we had during games. :)
But, I could have save the money for SS3!
P.s. Anyone have a samsung phone that uses singtel plan?! *lol despo me*

Btw, I think that I look very awkward when I do some basic dance steps at times!
D:
This had been troubling me for very long! :(
It must be due to my slouching!
My sholders also looks droopy?
Lol, is droopy the right word?
I'll just say that my shoulder looks weird!
Damn ugly when dancing. :O
P.s. I need to improve my vocab on dance moves so I'll know what to do during mini cipher.

P.p.s Damn jealous about my friend in np going to korea for study trip tmr.
:( I want to go toooo!!!!
KOREAAAAA