Waiting for that someone who will make me smile like no other ♥

Was posted on Saturday, April 19, 2008

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iam so damnit pissed...can't describe...i dunno if iam tinking too much or wat...it just gets on my nerves...i can't stand it...will be going mad from doubting ppl and myself sooner or later...
i noe iam almost invisible or maybe even transparent...
i noe iam nt liked...
i noe iam nt tat hyper or funny type...iam just trying to be funny and making fun of myself as you like it...
i noe iam nt pretty or cool looking...
i noe i dun hav much money...iam poor can?!
i dun hav a nice bag,nice shirt or watsoever...
i hav nothing...
i noe nothing...
i just seem and feel like a nerd....
iam quite useless in studies..oh..maybe iam quite useless in eveything...
everything now just sort of s**k like shit...
iam nt happy..nt happy at all...anw i never am..
iam nt popular..(it's nt tat i wan to be a popular or wat..)it's just so lonely wanting to go somewhere bt nobody wans to go wif me...
i hate being lonely..i hate to be the only person..
i just keep seeing e things which i dun wanna see...
i just feel so left out....
i just dun feel right dere...it just feels as if i shouldn't be dere anw...like an xtra thing ready to be kicked away...
she can survive without me obviously since she has others...others tat she can be more happy wif...
i hav gt e mind to take away the tagboard or even tis blog since nobody comes anyway...it's just very useless...like a waste of space...
so who e hell am i writing to see??i just dunno...maybe some invisible ppl too??
crazy everthing is just driving me crazy...
i wanna beng kui...i wanna cry...bt nothing comes out plus i dun wan anything to come out...
iam nt tat weak...bt maybe iam..
i mus learn to be independent and nt rely on others...iam trying very hard nt to do so...bt i just can't...i hate to be alone...

Was posted on Thursday, April 17, 2008

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tada....should be returning tis laptop tmr...cos i hav just finally managed to send my geog proj...hehes...thanks to laywen and meixuan.. :DDD laywen pointed out tat i might hav save the file to the wrong place...it should actually be saved as 'ppt' bt i saved it as 'pptx' which is another new type of powerpoint slide...no wonder no one can open the file..coa no one hav the version of powerpoint....zzzz...den meixuan help me to attach the file...thanksy...
lessons was tiring,imkept sleeping,nt enough sleep..hav panda eyes le...
was getting nervous bout tmr running now...nervous nervous...zzz...
nothing much just tat dere is still tons of hw nt completed...haizz..sianx...
tat's all..byes

Was posted on Wednesday, April 16, 2008

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just posting some photo at the prize-giving ceremony...

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iam bored...ok..maybe nt bored...i hav alot of things to do...bt i just dun feel like doing them...hav geog test tmr...bt i haven even touched a single chapter of it..i noe iam lazy...i just dun feel like doing anything tat's all...as you noe iam one who always 'lin shi bao fu jiao de'...hehes... >.<
feel =ing very lame...blogging like tis...i tink iam writing crap la...blabbering nonsense...just writing for the sake of writing...
oh well i screw up my oral...dere is alot of words which i dunno how to read laas...den i was stuttering like shit...well i sort of blurted out an english word during e conversation...zzz...i was e word 'like'....oh man...haiz...great i tink i wun get gd grades for these oral le...ai...anw,i can only just hope da best...
iam bored...i felt like having a class outing after e mid-year test....
ya ok should stop blabbering and start doing my things... bbyes. :D

Was posted on Tuesday, April 15, 2008

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All these is cute and funny..and it seems to be quite true for me.. :DD should go and see...click each picture for larger version...

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oh la~~coming here to blog....tink tat i hav been real busy these few weeks...i dun even noe wat am i busying bout...iam sooooooo damn tired....plus,mid-year coming le...scared....tink i hav overshot the time of using e internet of only 13 hours in like just only 3 days??am i a pro??nt...lols..
dunno wat to say dunno wat to rite dunno how to say dunno how to rite...
in sch,mood swings mood swings and still mood swings....it's like almost eveything can piss me off....and it's like almost everything can make me laugh like some kind of mad ppl....and i can very and i mean VERY lame at times....haas...melissa had had a taste of my lameness and coldness...dots...
=.=/+.+
so frustrated bout my geog proj...everything seems to hav gone wrong..firstly,my file somewat dissapear frm my disc and i hav no backup...so hav to redo..den...i just can't seem to attach my file to e mail,so i can't send it...wat hell..am i tat unlucky??plus i hav been like dozing off in class and hav been trying to keep myself awake...
sports day coming le...iam nt nervous or scared...YET...i tink i will only get jellied legs during tat day tat time at the starting point...bt iam just scared tat i wun even be able to win anything...'pray hard' *wish me luck ppls!!*

dunno why i feel tis way...i noe i shouldn't feel this way...i noe it's nt gd,it's bad....and i dun like e time when i see tis..it just spoil my mood entirely...bt i just cannot stop feeling tis way...oh...watever am i saying...zzzz...

erms...tis should be all??

well,tink should be all...oh...it's a short post...no...should be tat my my recent posts had been short...tis is nt me..i shouldn't be having tat short posts...ah...iam losing my sense of communication!!eh..sense doesn't seem to be the right word...oh!!something's wrong!!how!!

oh..ignore me...just being self-entertaining...-.- byyes...

Labels: mad.., tired

Was posted on Saturday, April 5, 2008

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bbzzzz...now at cousin hse...so can use com and blog...staying overnite there...
stupid la...went cut my hair wif my mother...and guess where i go??you noe the cp bus interchange dere??yeah i went dere and cut...frm dere, i tink you can guess the end product...zzz...i look so damn nerd!!argh!!!can't stang it!!!and noe wat...dere are no hair beside my ear anymore!!i can clearly see my ear!!!oh god...i dun like tat...i just merely ask my mother wat happens if dere is no hair besides my ear...and she said tat i should look ok...den she told me to try cutting it..anw i agreed and she say tat she will tell e hairdresser hoe to cut it...haas..i dun noe how she tell her laahs...and it ended up like sai like tat...iam so pissed and angry laas...i dun tink she noe how to tell lorrs...stupid laas...i look really stupid laas...and my mother was like saying tat she like it like tat cos i look nerdy and guai and i was like GGRRRR!!!wth!!!i dun like it can?!my hair lehhs...you like it is yr business lorrs..the most important thing is tat i dun like it laars...stupid arse...wat hell...iam so unlucky...

oh wat hell...iam so pisssed...having really big and bad mood swings...iam just so angry with their mind of thinking...ok i agree tat we are nt bonded or watever...bt we are nt really tat not bonded wat..look at the photos we take..it's like getting more and more close with each other...lolss..and the cheers..i dun tink ian one of the un-enthu sort laahs...it's just tat nobody participate in anything so i dun dare to do anything laahs..otherwise it will be so wierd..so it's like somebody mus start first lahs!den i did contribute in giving e cheer,bt iam nt asked in participating in cheering...haas...how irony is tat??wat are you guys thinkin!!??heyys!!i did put in effort loors...are you thinking iam tooooo quiet to cheer or wat!!huh?!think iam nt pei to join yr grp of friends ah??iam so diao-ed can!!??den like you are say,we all came to diff classes...so you can't expect them to get all so close and bonded immediately like yr previous class lors!!we nod time wat??like i can get so bonded wif you all like tat...bt i did try to be friends wif some others to some others..they are nt bad friends wat??nt all ppl in the class is so un-enthu de lor...i tink there are enthu ones for god sake...it's just tat you nv found out...you keep wantting yr perfectly 100% bonded class tat you nv wan to try to be friends wif some...you only wan to be friends eif those tat are really HIGH tat typr or watsoever..i dunno...hello...we can start from scratch!!anw,i did agree tat dere are really some very eu-enthu ppl in class and dun really llike them too...bt wat to do..we will be wif tis class for like two years,so why dun make the best of it?!i just dun understand and i dun like you all critising tat e class is sulky or fucky or wat...i dun wanna care...you all dun wanna try is yr business...bt iam going to continue to try for all i care!!i just dun believe tat we still can't be bonded after one or more years...and you all dun look unhappy in class wat...you all hav yr best friends with you already wat??so wat more do you all wan...i just cannot stand it..and i tink iam e only one sweeping e class laas...iam nt complaining..i like sweeping..it gives me e sastisfaction...and e class is like so damn dirty laas...can't anyone feel it??!!den why is everyone asking me why i sweep the class?!?!becos it's is super dirty!!!i noe i gt a little jie pi..bt tat's nt e point...isn't anyone doing the class duty?!?!ARGH!!just can't stand it!!(no offense to tis part of the post...just wanna say out my feeling..)

And my nerdy hair is pissing me off too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!